I took a two cups of fairly strong coffee to get my system going.
Not to make my mind race at all but it has this calming feeling of sparkling the creativity which helps me write down my inner most feelings.
A Sunday morning, my lover’s gone.
All quiet around me while the clouds overcast the sun so that hot summer day feels like beginning of the autumn harvest season.
Fall always brings out reflection, then closure and yielding.
I feel young, sometimes childish. Yet I know my youth lays behind me.
Somedays the body aches and the soul is torn.
But, like in buddhism, if I try to look at the world with childish eyes, non judgmental and endless curiosity there’s proof that age don’t matter.
Besides, what’s more rewarding; being a careless child or a rebellious teen with not a care in the world doing unconscious decisions or having that awareness we ought to gain with age?
Both have its pros and cons in a philosophical way. What matters is the perception of it and how to not get drowned in the everyday mental chatters of our surroundings and within our brains.
So I write myself a little postcard, a remainder that the child, the punkish’ teen and the buddha all live in me.
They belong together. It’s what forms our personalities.
I give them a hug and open my eyes. The kid want’s to play now.